If I find in myselfdesires nothing in this world can satisfy,
I can only conclude
that I, I was not made for here
If the flesh that I fight is at best
only light and momentary,
then of course I'll feel nude
when to where I'm destined I'm compared
Speak to me in the light of the dawn
Mercy comes with the morning
I will sigh and with all creation groan
as I wait for hope to come for me
Am I lost or just less found?
On the straight or on the roundabout
of the wrong way?
Is this a soul that stirs in me
is it breaking free, wanting to come alive?
cause my comfort would prefer for me to be numb
And avoid the impending birth
of who I was born to become
For we, we are not long here
Our time is but a breath,
so we better breathe it
And I, I was made to live
I was made to love
I was made to know you
Hope is coming for me
Hope, He's coming for me
Hope is coming for me
Hope, He's coming
Speak to me in the light of the dawn
Mercy comes with the morning
I will sigh and with all creation groan
as I wait for hope to come for me
For me, for me, for me
this song, is a song inspired by C.S. Lewis and performed by Brooke Fraser. most everyone knows the famous C.S. Lewis quote; "I find in myself a desire which no experience can satisfy, the most profitable explanation is that I was made for another world"... and lately, i find myself coming back to both this song and this quote when i'm commuting here or there or just spending time alone with God.
sometimes, the feeling of walking around in this world gets so overwhelming i feel like i just need to scream. my heart actually physically hurts when i see certain people walking around this city. when i see friends of mine who don't know my Jesus. when listening to the news or seeing the headlines about the horror that's happening in Gaza. hearing the news that the ban on American funding of overseas abortions is being lifted... instead of shouting, i find myself closing my eyes and picturing Jesus' hand extending out to mine... sounds strange, but i imagine myself actually putting on His eyes and walking around with His heart in my chest. i say a simple prayer asking Him to ease my anxiety; to let me see his broken children the way He does, with this incredible and indescribable love.
when i become overwhelmed with a mission, or with the church, or with the hurt i see in others, or with the evil ways of this world, i think "jenna, you are not so insignificant". i remember that i am a saint of God. because i chose to believe in the scriptures and because i am never satisfied with where i'm at spiritually, i am a saint of the Lord. i look to Christ- the only One who is able to help me with His wisdom.
Ephesians 2 tells me that i am made alive in Christ:
"But because of His great love for us, God who is rich in mercy, made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in our transgresions-..." (Ephesians 2:4-5)
"And God raised us up with Christ and seated us with him in the heavenly realms in Christ Jesus, in order that in the coming ages he might show the incomparable riches of his grace, expressed in his kindness to us in Christ Jesus." (Ephesians 2:6-7)
God never asked us to do anything we can do; He asked us to live a life we can NEVER live, He asked us to do a work which we can NEVER do... but by His grace, we are living and doing it... by His Holy Spirit, we are living it out.
you see, when you are in Christ... your greatest asset you have is that the person of Christ lives inside you. and i remember this. i have already been given everything i will ever need from God. my Christian faith is not a faith where i'm just simply trying to be a better person by doing "good works". it is one where i am saved by His amazing Grace but also one where i am sanctified by His amazing grace.
